No more morning greetings, saying "God bless and take care," and "I love you..." No more Good night greetings.. No one to remind me to pray... There's none that I can text with during my lunchbreak when everyone else plays counterstrike...T-T
I felt depressed I bought a cake- Chocolate Marjolaine for my mom and for me to eat.. Suddenly I craved on spending my money on anything. Sigh... I just wanted to buy anything and EAT whatever I want... Waaaaaaaaah!!! My savings are suffering because of this.. I need to change...
There's nothing else to do but to move on. Time never stops for you, unless you're dead, I guess. I have to hang on for everything else that's left with me. I'll get used to it after sometime.
Right now I want to be busy and work, work work!!! I've been liking Algebra these days.. Haha!! Miracle indeed.^^, I have my hands on working with our MTV, designing the choir logo, and working on our Barkada Magazine, which is to be published on summer next year. I'm very excited actually. After all I'll be doing these stuffs. I better train myself earlier in order to be prepared for my next years in College.
My mind is running, time is running.. There still are school stuffs I need to finish... I have to balance my time in order to finish everything. May God help me in everything that I do..
Sigh... I'm so sad I want to WORK, WORK, WORK!! Time to work!! Hahaha!!^-^ More stuffs to do, more things to think of, more days and nights in front of the PC, more on staying up late.. Well then.. LET THE FUN BEGIN!! Lol!!^^,
+Let me hold you once more...+
Friday, October 27, 2006
Sunday, I was able to see her, even for just a while... I wanted to give her something from NEO, but it's not finished... I don't want to give her something naman just for the sake of giving her something.. I guess I'm lucky because I got to se her before she leaves, and I talked to her and took pictures with her.. See her smile.. See her wearing purple, lol!!^-^ But then, I've been pressured by time.. I promised I'd go and see her that night after the party to give her the gift we've made.. But again we had problems... I just wanted to give her the damn thing, for goodness sake!!T-T And then I had a bad headache..T-T I wasn't able to enjoy the rst of the night.. I let myself be isolated in a corner, thinking... regretting... feeling so foolish.. hopeless... I wanted to cry, but I held my tears back...
I called her on the phone using my celfone (since we don't have landline, still) the night before they leave... It was just a simple conversation, as if nothing's gonna be different tomorrow, on the moment I wake up... I didn't cry.. I didn't want to be emotional... I loaded my phone just to call her.. It was the last phone call-and on the celfone- that I've had with her before she leaves... And I still didn't say goodbye... Deep down inside I'm missing her so much...T-T
Saying goodbye is an awful thing, knowing that everything's gonna change the next day...Goodbyes are for people who are gone forever.. She's not gone.. She's just far away, somewhere out there.. We're still on the same planet.. We still look up at the same blue and nightsky.. She maybe is far away, but I didn't actually lose her.. She's here, kept in my heart... I just hope-no hopes.. we'll be BESTFRIENDS forever... I won't say goodbye, just Good Night, and See yah Later..
The last thing I did was to text her... I was up until 12, trying to place everything or most of the things I wanted to tell her.. And in the morning, upon waking up.. all I said was, "umalis na siya..." I didn't cry cuz I didn't want to.. I didn't smile... But then, I know that wherever she is right now, she's happy.. I have to be happy because she's happy... and I'm going to see her soon... My heart feels heavy.. But then life must go on..
I won't complain, and I won't question.. The stress from the last week's enough... I know He has a purpose.. He's trying to teach me something.. And it's my turn to learn the lesson He has imposed... I know He's on her side, so I don't have to worry... He's a great Father, and I know He knows what's best... We have the same "DAD" who guides us and blesses us... Maybe He'll guide us towards each other's paths once again, and I'll wait for that moment to arrive...
No goodbyes... See yah later...^^,
+Let me hold you once more...+
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
+Let me hold you once more...+
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Like what I have said, but it has been a long time. Haha.. So many things have happened, I guess.^^,
For the past weeks, I've been drowned with studies.. Hahaha!! Can you believe that?? Oh.. And to tell you.. This is the first time I liked Math.. Woohoooooo!!! Is that a miracle or what?!?!?!
I helped Carlo with their group project. I helped editting their vid-making it an MTV.. It was soooo cool!! And they got the excemption!! Praise the Lord!! I was praying for that for so long..Hahaha!!
Working lately with Photoshop..Just exploring around.. And I was editting pics of Tatsuya-san and Jun-kun!! I just made icons!! Hahahaha!! Lol!!
I'm sooooo worried I might not have time with Sice.. I DON'T LIKE THAT!! NOOOOOOOO!!! Not in my Life!!T-T It's giving me a huge headache and heartache..T-T All we wanted was to hang out but our scheds were clashing.. Dang!! God, help us!!
I'm currently working with Mama Nhau's debut.. sO excited!!<3
+Let me hold you once more...+
Monday, October 16, 2006
Mah TAGGIE board
Name: SICENAERIAD
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I'm an absolute Japanese Lover: the culture, the music, the place, the people.. Man, I love Japan!!
+WISHLIST+
=[All about ME!]=
Age: Currently 17 years old
Birthday: May 20
Zodiac: Taurus
Hometown: Find me around Asia:P
Color/s: Black,GREEN,tan,purple,ALL autumn colors,blue,pink(yes!),white
Number/s: 20,22,8
I'm an introvert and an observer
I don't like people who keeps on bothering me all the time
I love GACKT!! Check out my stuff about Gackt on T-icon!^_^
I'm In Love!
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>>Laptop or my own desktop PC
>>Digicam
>>Videocam
>>ipod video with 30Gigabytes
>>Flashdrive
>>Brand new Chuck Tailors
>>New Bag
>>Party at a bar
>>GO TO JAPAN!!
>>KISS GACKT- Lemme feel those sexy lips... Ahahaha
+MY LAYOUTS+>
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JO-MA
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