The Last Song I'm wasting for you...

Seki Rei

I heard the voice of the wind
I want to know the rest of the dream
No one will tell me
My chest was smeared red...

I want only you to understand
Why I must return...

Far off in this endlessly continuing white earth
My voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyone

Like it's concealing this body's pains
I'm embraced by kindness from the sky...

The moon reflected in those eyes is pretty
Even as the night is not finished

Far off in this endlessly continuing white earth
My voice that's crying out can no longer reach anyone

Deeply in this endlessly continuing white earth
I'm still falling and cannot be healed by anyone

Like being enveloped in that small body
I'm embraced by the wagtail's kindness...

I lie with the kindness from the sky
And am embraced by the earth's warmth...

ASH

Our laughing voices danced along the wind
The glittering sunset was a promise for tomorrow

I found you just as the moon began to shine
A transient dream of a faded age

Even the peace is broken over and over again, never to return
The overflowing hatred burns this night to its core...

The murmur of the forest is a gentle song
Just for a fleeting moment, it's a happy dream

Even in the freezing pain, I still remember kindness
If you can erase everything, than I don't even need this heart

But if you want this inflamed flesh
Then I give it all to you
Just make sure to never forget this sadness
By tracing over the marks of those tears with a knife

The shimmering heat floating in the dawn sky
Smiling, you are there next to me

Live as if you were to die tomorrow
Feel as if you were to be reborn now
Face as if you were to live forever

Sumimasen!! I actually forgot to put credits on the sites on where I got my brushes. If your brushes are used in this layout, please feel free to contact me so that I may credit your site!! Again I am very sorry... Hountouni Gomenasai!!

Sicenaeriad

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The beautiful days.. and Headache part 3
Sunday, February 12, 2006

Saturday, we have this Plaro thingy in CAT. We, the officers are to officiate. I was planning not to attend CAT in case I still have my headache. Unfortunately when I woke uP, I didn't feel my headache. ANd MORE unfortunately, I felt it whn I was already at schooL. I laso felt nauseatic. Sheeeesh!! What luck!!! DAMn!!! Anyways, I tried to get rid of the pain and laugh with the cadets or laugh at what they do/look like while playing the game. Anyway, I still DO nOT feEL WeLL. I wanted to vomit. And they were joking around saying I'm pregnant. HAller????
Later that afternoon I didn't practice on the choir anymore because I do feel dizzy and I can't leave Maricar and Mama Nhau at home. Steph and Junie went to attend Lebadura. Not sooner or later Kuya Bonn came with two lsagnas for us. But actually it was suppossed to be ONLY for Maricar. Ahihihihi!!! Then we ordered pizza and then, they went off becuZ they still have to attend church. I'm hearing masses at ouR community church it's at 7am on Sundays.

+Let me hold you once more...+
Sunday, February 12, 2006

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The beautiful days.. and Headache part 2

When I woke up Friday morning, mom asked me if I'd be going to school. Ididn't ansswer, but I have to go, because I'm assigned as student-teacher. Damn!!! My headache just attacked again, worse this time. But I still went to school. Only a few highschools went to school, since we just came from a field trip, and everyone's tired, even the tachers who had come to the field trip. Nonoy was sick when I read his group text message. I still went to school foR the sake of the teacher I'm replacing and, MAN!!! The preschool-PRep students were so WILD!! I think I'm gonna go crAzy with them!! Sheeesh!!!! I wasn't feeling already, and they made things worse. But I enjoyed a few students like little Marc- the cute, chinito boy who looked like Clyde or my Big Bro Paul when they were still WHITE in complexion and still cute and young, and Hana, and Felisse. Felisse was really sweet you know. Few kids cried in my classes.. Sheesh... I hate it, but I guess I have to bear with it. Who knows? I might be having kids toO.. But that would still come Later in my life. Not now...
Hmmm.... Then, Mrs. Sese said we can now go Home, since we're all tird. THANKY YOU MA'AM!!! She still has a heart, you know..??? Wahihihihi!!! ANyways... I then talked to Lois for a while. Then he kept on insisting about the GUy whom I LovEd.. DAMn Loved but GOt HUrt becAUse I was ASA... Sheeeshh... He knows now. But it'll soon be over. Just a few weeks, days left. And it's all over. I just hope I won't fail in my thesis, dammit!!!
When I arrived home, I didn't eat lunch anymore. I just ate chocolate and drank lotZa water and took medicine and slept. I was freakin' hoT. Got fever... BecuZ of the DaMn HEAdaChe...

+Let me hold you once more...+
Sunday, February 12, 2006

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The beautiful days.. and Headache part 1

Hello there... Was it already a long time..??? Well, this week was really, really fun. Although it was very tiring. We just had our dAmn field trip last Thursday. Gosh, The night before, I slept from 9-10pm. Then I woke up and turned to my PC. Ahehehe... I was watching music videos of Final Fantasy. It's where I found the music of Mentake, a Canadian band. Ahihihi!!!^_^ What else... I was talking to Steph through chat, giving her the playlist she'd burn. Grrr... She lost the one I wrote earlier at school. S\Anyways, she slept late. I slept earlier. That's because my mum already got mad at me.. Wahihihi!! I was listening on my playlist in my PC. My music, of course, is Rock, and I was baning my head, and my foot stomping (was the term right..?) at every beat, when someone just spanked me in the head. I looked back and mom was standing there. I was shocked at first when she spanked me, and I just laughed. She then scolded at me to go to sleep. Damn!! Then I just told Steph I'll wait for her to finish. I was tuck in bed, and I can't sleep... Then I just talked to DAd, and then, I blacked Out. Sorry Steph!! I dunnO what tim I slept but it was really late.
Anyways, our bus wasn't there when we arrived at RFC. Our group was there, laughing and having fun. Our Group (Bus #8) was the bESt!! Ahihihi!!! It was very fun. When I woke up I felt headaches and I got cOLds.. AS usual... Sheeesh... Total DISTrACtion...
I was texting KUya TJ along the way, and he said they're fine. We're much better off, I believe.Ahehehe... Anyways, I just slept along the way, trying to get rid of my headache. Then we had a stop-over at Pampanga to got o the CR or buy stuffs. I wanted a drink/liquor... I WANTEd Liquor BADLY. But I want to graduate and I want a cleen slate before I leave the school so, I got control of myself. Waaaaaaah!!!!
When we got to the Dambana ng Kagitingan, damn it was sO cOLD up there. Sheeeesh!!!! We went to this LONG, LONG, LONG trail up to where the cross was. It was really tiring!! DAMn!!! But it was nice up there, you can see almost everything below. But it was cold... It gave me the shivers though I'm wearing a jacket.
I went up to the arms of the Cross with RAks(Ranen), and Papa kEvin. We were joking around before we get up, because we're riding an elevator, "Naku Papa Kevs!! Puno na yung elevator pag tayong dalawa nA!!" And we were laughing. Ahihihi... The view up ther was gorgeous. Amazing. Never seen quite a beautiful view.... I only stayed there for a short time because it was really cold, I can feel my head splitting in half.
Then... the next destination was Subic. Before we get there, I asked for medicine because of my headache. Can't bear it anymore. Then there we were... We were the first to arrive at the beach. Too bad we can't play in the water. Our Dear Sir Peter didn't allow us. Sigh... We arrived at 3pm there. Call it a lunch huh... Anyways, it was still fun, because our group shared food, even in the bus along the way. Then we played for a while on the sand. I just watched them run because I can still feel my headache.
Then we returned to our buses, and there was a tour guide of course, to guide us around Subic. Sorry, for I have fallen asleep. I can't bear the pain of headache. Then Jamie kept on disturbing me... DAMn!!!
The survival demo of Kuya SAM (short for Samson) at the Pamulaklakin was very entertaining. He was very good, and quite a comedian. I wanted an autoraph of him but I forot somehow. We had a picture together with the others anyway.
The trekking was very long, and I somehow forgot the names of the trees already. but it was worthwhile.^_^
Errr... when we got back at the bus, we changed clothes then. I had a hard time changing because the space wasn't that big and I don't know what's wrong with the top of my blouse. So I just put in the spaghetti thingy and then my jacket. Then we arrived at Duty Free. I bought chocolates for my mOm and for my Bro. Wahihihihi!!! I kind of, spent all my money for the chocolates. Wahihihi!!! Well, that's okay...^_^
On the journey home, we watched Coach Carter. It was a very,very nice movie. I loved it. ^_^
Then... we finally arrived back at RFC. We were second to arrive. Tito Juvy was waiting for us. Clyde arrived first then me. We're still waiting for Kakay and Jude. Then I just heard someone was hospitalized. Sheeez... That's why the other buses were late. Well anyways, Kakay arrived a few minutes later then we finally got home. Then I went to sleep already.

+Let me hold you once more...+
Sunday, February 12, 2006

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